I'm "Coming to Realize..."

I’ve come to realize that my job. . .is a big blessing.  I get to take care of people who are really sick and make a difference in their lives.  I get frustrated and angry at my coworkers, but at the end of the day, I got to touch several families lives and help patients get through unpleasant procedures without pain or discomfort.
I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving. . I don't really listen to the radio, but I like to have it on for company.
I’ve come to realize that I need. . .time to rest and recharge.  I used to be able to just go and go, and now I need to stop and rest.
I’ve come to realize that I have lost. . .some of my closest friends due to distance. 
I’ve come to realize that I hate it when. . .people don't like me or talk about me behind my back.
I’ve come to realize that money. . .is the Lords and should be used in a way that honors him.
I’ve come to realize that certain people. . .will never change and don't want to change.
I’ve come to realize that I’ll always. . .put others first.
I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s). . ..has grown up into a fine man who deserves to be happy.

I’ve come to realize that my mom. . .is my best friend.
I’ve come to realize that my cell phone. . .is a necessary evil.  And that I get on facebook and play Words with Friends way too much.
I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning. . .I had too much time to get ready and looked way too nice for work when I wear a hat, mask, and blue scrubs all day.
I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep. . . I wanted Steve to hold me and help me rest. 

I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking. . .and worrying about school starting on Wednesday.

I’ve come to realize that my dad. . .is amazing.  He works so hard and expects so little, and does it all in pain from his arthritis.
I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook. . .I spend way too much time on Facebook games.
I’ve come to realize that today. . .Is a very long 12 hour shift for the first time in almost 2 years.

I’ve come to realize that tonight. . .I will need to go to bed early for my doctors appointment.
I’ve come to realize that tomorrow. . is a turning point in my life.  I am praying that God will heal my cyst and I will get the "green light" to try to have a baby THIS month.
I’ve come to realize that I really want to . . .stay home, be a housewife, mother, and a homeschool mom.  If you had asked me this last year, I would have told you I would never want to stay home or homeschool. 
I’ve come to realize that life. . .is too short to worry about things you cannot change.
I’ve come to realize that this weekend. . .I should spend time with my husband who was neglected this weekend due to my 18 hours of call.
I’ve come to realize that my friends. . .come and go, except for a special few.  I don't make true friends easily, and I hurt when I realize they are gone.

I’ve come to realize that this year. . .is going to be hard with school, but the Lord has given me this task and I will get through it.

I’ve come to realize that my husband. . .is an amazing man of God who has grown and changed with me in the 8 years we've been together. 
I’ve come to realize that maybe I should. . . .enjoy this time if it's not time for me to become a mom.  After you become a mom, it never goes back to the way it is now.
I’ve come to realize that I love. . .a challenge.  That's why I made this blog, learned to run, started graduate school, and push myself daily to work at 110% even when I feel 10%.
I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand. . .why bad things happen to good people.  I don't know if I'll ever get it.  I have seen so many people hurting and never understood why the Lord did not deliver them when they asked.

I’ve come to realize my past. . .is part of me and makes me who I am.

I’ve come to realize that parties. . .are not for me.  I don't want to be in that kind of environment.  I'm not a party girl.  I like small gatherings and dinner with friends, but not parties. 
I’ve come to realize that I’m totally terrified. . .of moving from LR.  I've known we would move since 2002, but now that it's just over a year away and things haven't gone according to "plan", I am so scared of being pregnant and being a mom away from my family.  I really wanted that to happen while I was here.  There's not much time for the Lord to answer this prayer.
I’ve come to realize that my life. . .is a testament to God and his redeeming grace, and I need to work on showing that in every thought and deed.