Avery and Me

Avery and Me

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Free to Be Me--Public (nailbiting...)

Since I just took my blog public as an experiment....I thought I would post the lyrics from the song that inspired the title of my blog. 

I think it's important to share what is going on in your heart with those you love.  Today I was handed some bad news, but I am trying to make the best of it.  I was diagnosed with PCOS today.  (polycystic ovarian syndrome)  Basically it's my 2nd or 3rd worst nightmare come true, because I desperately want children.  My husband has been so good to me through the whole diagnostic process, and I am trying hard to be at peace with the whole mess.  I have a large cyst on one ovary, so for now I can't even try to get pregnant.  These next two months while I am taking medication to shrink the cyst I am committed to praying daily and spending a daily time with God.  If you want to join me, please let me know.  I believe we can do it! 

The next thing I have to do is lose 30 pounds, preferably 40 to help with my fertility.  My husband is being supportive, but I need your help too.  Please be encouraging!  (and offer healthy restaurants when you invite me somewhere :). 

A sweet friend Jessica sent me this verse today and it has been on my heart all day.
2 Cor. 12:19 -  But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

So here I am, boasting about my weakness, and inviting God's grace, and inviting you to be part of the prayer.  I am hopeful!

So here are the lyrics that inspired me to name my blog.

Album: My Paper Heart
Artist: Francesca Battistelli

At twenty years of age I'm still looking for a dream
A war's already waged for my destiny
But You've already won the battle
And You've got great plans for me
Though I can’t always see

‘Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me

When I was just a girl I thought I had it figured out
My life would turn out right, and I'd make it here somehow
But things don't always come that easy
And sometimes I would doubt


And you’re free to be you

Sometimes I believe that I can do anything
Yet other times I think I've got nothing good to bring
But You look at my heart and You tell me
That I've got all You seek
And it’s easy to believe
Even though


1 comment:

  1. Beautifully put! I love that song. Ps. 25:1 "O Lord, I give my life to you."